"Making It Make Sense" (SM) with Dr. Pamela Brewer
Letters From Life ...
A MyNDTALK series celebrating people...
was i am i a good mom?
a question that has haunted me for my lifetime
i was a baby having a baby i did not know what to do or say or think or feel and i was scared... my life... unreal... and there were times i know (now) i was not the good mom i never had but wanted to be
did i scar her for always i live this question every day...
she is not living the life i would have her live she is not in the joy i would have her know
she is not in the arms i would wish to comfort her she is not the good parent she never had but wanted to be
and yet she is open and warm she is feisty and amazing she is creative and energized
she is resourceful and bold
and she loves... fiercely....
and now it is not about me being a good mom
it is about her.... living in joy and peace and safety and smiles and emotional comfort and self love and love for others
and each tear i shed for her.... is a tear of fear for her and hope for her and love for her....